In Quest Six, we take a closer look at Beliefs and why they are the cornerstone to all that you create. To begin this thought, we need to absorb a simple diagram that can explain so much about the dynamics that govern your life. See below – this dynamic has the power to bring out some powerful emotions.

FOUR POWER BELIEFS

As you can see from the image above – a truly powerful conscious self-monitoring system, that if you follow the pink line from TRUST to CREATIVITY – low TRUST, leads to low CREATIVITY. (You know who you are!) Follow the red line and notice that more TRUST, leads to less GUILT. Follow the green line and notice that high CREATIVITY leads to less guilt. Low PERFECTION leads to high TRUST. More PERFECTION leads to less CREATIVITY. Less PERFECTION leads to high TRUST.

TRUST and CREATIVITY are divinely connected and PERFECTION and GUILT are human-ly connected. You can assume that if you are dancing with PERFECTION, you have relinquished TRUST and CREATIVITY and engaged GUILT. Of course, all the opposites apply here too – high TRUST leads to more CREATIVITY etc. When you are functioning from a place of TRUST, your self esteem is engaged and you can venture forth into the unknown with confidence, as your imagination will be ignited and anything is possible. PERFECTION only works with what is tried and true and is unable to venture into the unknown. It falls back onto GUILT because Guilt is anger that you feel you have no right to feel. You are angry because you cannot write a new script, you can ONLY re-write the old one! Without TRUST and CREATIVITY, you demand perfection of yourself and others. Take a good look at this and do some serious introspection.

* Experience + Emotions = Beliefs

* The nervous system cannot distinguish between the event done and an event thought. Take a long moment with this one. What happens when you watch television and jump or get a fright? Your body/nervous system is registering what you see, as actuality. It is recording the movie as if you are the one going through the drama or scenario. You have the power of your will to decide and the power of your imagination to visualize.

Six Raw Materials (as named by Lazaris) make up the stuff that you build your reality with. Beliefs, Attitudes, Thoughts, Feelings, Decisions and Choices. The cornerstones of change lie with the first and last – Beliefs and Choices. The way it works elegantly, if you change a Belief, then the following Raw Materials follow through with that change. If you change a Belief, then your attitude changes, your thoughts change and produce new feelings, your decisions change and then you make new choices. However, Beliefs seem to be buried and hidden and obscure and can be very difficult to source. So, the other cornerstone is the key to change. If you make a different choice, your decisions will change and you will feel differently. Then your thoughts will change and your attitude will follow suit. This will then bring change to your deep core Beliefs. When you stumble upon a Script – make a different choice if you can’t find the Belief!

When you come into life you bring with you various limited beliefs or get them very early in life. By removing them you won’t have to experience them as part of your destiny. The lack of Deservability permeates your Beliefs and attitudes, your thoughts and feelings, and your choices and decisions. You do not feel you deserve and a primary focus that seems easy enough to accomplish, has just been moved out of reach. Because it is beyond your Belief and therefore your choice, ‘you can’t get there from here.’ There are reasons for this:

–              You were taught by parents or peers that you don’t deserve to be happy. These sources of learning were not necessarily ill intentioned. Much of what they taught you was what they learned and what they thought would ‘protect’ you from a world they didn’t understand and therefore a world that seemed to be the enemy. You also have to consider that some, out of jealousy, possessiveness and fear, did intend to imprison you in their limitations.

–         You are haunted by the past. As a child, you were so angry, that you wished your mother was dead. You numbed your hurt with hate. You harnessed the anguish with resentment. Lonely – you punished yourself. You decided you did not deserve to be happy. Ever! You still live by that decision.

–         You feel guilty. The guilt you may feel can be sourced in fact and fantasy, or it can be unsourced in the belief that you are guilty just by being alive. Perhaps you were taught; perhaps you were conditioned. Now you feel guilty. According to you, you do not deserve. The possibility of happiness, the possibility of having fun, is frightening. It is a threat. This is where your lack of Deserving lies if you find yourself feeling guilty when things go wrong and even worse — guiltier — when things go right. Are you constantly apologizing for being here – for being alive?

–         You come to realize that the lack of deserving is the problem. You are eloquent and articulate about all the reasons you don’t deserve and you have freed yourself from guilt. Yet you still don’t feel you deserve. Why? Because, you tell yourself, if you deserved, you’d have figured it out long ago! You say you don’t deserve because you still feel undeserving. Often, there is a feeling of foolishness: ‘I should already know this. I should already have done this.’ Admit your foolishness and your embarrassment. Break this by realizing you are not alone. Everyone feels the lack of deserving. It is part of your human condition. It is part of what you are learning through the journey of the Dark Tree.

–         You are depressed. Depression is anger that you fear you will get in trouble for having. Many who are depressed in their marriages or relationships are often angry, but fear reprisals should they talk about it. Many who dread going to work because their jobs depress them are really saying they are angry, but actualization carries intolerable consequences. The anger that seeds depression can build over many months or many years, or it can come from quick and sudden change. One of the ways you suppress — represses — depress — that anger is by denying your divinity. You deny it by refusing it, or by choosing to believe that it is outside the realms of possibility or probability. Either way, it is beyond your reach.

–         You lack perfection. You have made mistakes, and you have not forgiven yourself. Perhaps you are waiting for others to forgive you or to apologize to you. Perhaps you have decided that you are unforgivable. Whatever you tell yourself, you have concluded that you do not deserve to create successfully, believe wholly and live freely. Erroneously you have decided that you can have fun once you are perfect, and not before. Since you already have made a mistake, you are doomed. If you can discover the arrogance rather than feel the self-pity of this position, you can be free of it.

–         Many have decided that humankind as well as they individually, have a fatal flaw or an original sin of sorts — of an inability to love. Because they can’t love, or can’t love “good enough,” they do not deserve anything —especially – they do not deserve to have a life loving freely without guilt. Nor, according to them, does anyone else.

SOME POSSIBLE BELIEFS

Experience + Emotions = Beliefs

1) As a child you drop a glass and you are smacked and told you are clumsy + you then feel inadequate and angry = there is something wrong with me, so I must be perfect and then I will never make mistakes.

2) You win a gold medal and your father says, ‘that’s great but where are you going to take it’ + your feeling of diminishment = I am not enough and what I do will never be good enough.

3) You are slapped and told ‘what would you know’ + the feeling of self pity and thinking “I am not valued = whatever I do doesn’t matter.

4) Your mother screams, ‘I wish you weren’t born’ – at you + the feeling of rejection and abandonment = I am unlovable.

5) You were emotionally abused when you were small + the feeling of there is something wrong with you which creates the feeling of shame = I deserve to be punished.

6) You were diminished and verbally abused and belittled + you felt worthless = I don’t deserve happiness.

7) You were sexually abused by an authority + you had feelings of shame or specialness = Love is a lie.

8) You were abandoned your parent/s when you were young + you felt pain and hurt = I am not good enough or All men or women will let me down.

9) You had a tumultuous and violent upbringing + you felt fearful and insecure = To feel safe, I must always be in control.

And you can add your own examples to this list.