DEFINITIONS AND/OR EXAMPLES:

 

Abuse: If you were abused by father then you will draw abuse from authority figures. Often people become the abuser to nobilize and justify the abuse they received. They do it to understand it and make it normal. Those tape loops were established during adolescence because there was no foundation and no function of individuation. It is people who decide they are incapable of loving and can’t love who attract this most.

Sexuality: becomes a major drive in adolescence, true sexuality is an activity where two people try to become one, they unite and it is a very powerful act which releases tremendous energy. This energy can be used in a creative process to manifest your dreams and reach enlightenment. Judgment can distort or stunt this process.

Betrayal: It is when your primary source of trust, security, comfort and fair play is breached or broken and it has to do with your mother. You need to be betrayed or you’ll never grow up. If you never dissolved or resolved it, you can still be carrying the pain with you or you have subsequently gone onto project this mothers and fathers routine to continue the betrayal over and over. Each person you meet, you treat ‘as if’ they WILL betray you.

Abandonment: It is the fear of being left behind, a childhood projection. With the fear of abandonment, the child says – ‘I will never grow up and always remain your child.’

Humiliation: Humility is part of being a master and teacher, if you refuse to be humble, you end up being humiliated into being humble. This is where you are willing to see and learn something new in every situation no matter what. The adolescent within you struggles with this.

Rejection: This is where you feel you are not good enough and feel the need to be included. If you are rejected, you can understand that you didn’t belong to that group / person and/or you are being repellent. You end up feeling lonely because you don’t know and love yourself enough. The adolescent within you struggles with this.

Blaming others: If you refuse to accept that you create your own reality, you will easily blame others and it is a game of the negative ego.

Suppressed Anger: You suppress anger because you feel you will get into trouble if you express it, this is where it turns into guilt. 

Rage : Is an extreme loss of power and value, loss of soul and identity.

Jealousy: most often of tangible things e.g. the woman, the man, the child, your job or the money, your looks, your popularity. And they are comparative in their nature born of competition. Jealousy is also a message that quickly becomes a message in your subconscious. It‘s a message to your subconscious that this is something you cannot have nor keep.

Envy: Says even if there is enough, I won’t get any. It flourishes in the presumed deprivation of your present and of your future. Envy is born of deprivation and therefore says I can’t get what I want because I will be denied and deprived.

Pride: Pride is the opposite of strength because pride happens when you have an asset that is rigid and stagnant, that you use as an excuse for action, as a substitution for responsibility. Pride is part of a foundation the negative ego uses.

Fear of success: Afraid that people will expect things of you if you are successful, and the fear of responsibility of success and freedom of the future.

Difficulty in receiving love: Afraid of impact, you have to let it happen so you need to let go of control, you don’t want to feel obligated, you don’t feel good enough and lack deserving. It is better to give than receive is an admission of martyrhood. Receiving is an active giving and allowing energy.

Feeling alienated or alone: Is a fear of being alone and a lack of love, and not knowing oneself.

Feelings of pain or failure: Failure is a manifestation that your definitions about life are not working and in alignment with where you want to be. Eg ‘This world is cruel’ yet ‘I want happiness in life.‘

Lack of self esteem: The inability to do an honest value judgment of yourself, always based on a negative judgment, where you are unable to evaluate or estimate yourself, or do a positive appraisal of you, which would allow you to grow.

Issues around visibility: Fear of what will be asked of you, afraid of vulnerability, fear of impact, fear of what you have to deal with through your public image.

Issues around vulnerability: Fear of revealing your emotional side, being seen as emotional is being weak. Fear to reveal your weaknesses and strengths.

Always lapse into feeling weak: A form of manipulation and avoiding responsibility.

Lack of knowledge: Lack of self trust, or trusting in your ability to know what you need to know when you need to know it.

Always settle and compromise: Lacking boundaries, and afraid of confrontation, lack of self love and self esteem.

Beliefs are polluted by negativity: Being a pessimist, only seeing the destructive side, caught in the pain of the past and in your negative ego.

Expectations are polluted by negativity: When you have low expectations, you will fill the gap with cynicism and pessimism, depression and apathy, fear, entitlement, self-doubt,  control and anxiety.

Constant feelings of dread: Dread comes from inside of you and is starts at the very core of your esteem, value, worth and meaning and it eats away at these very things. It is an imminent threat of non-being. It arises when your drives, instincts, needs, mechanisms of survival seem to be suspended. So often when you feel fear, your instinctive responses kick in. Understand that as well, that dread can arise at the darkest end of reality, so it comes at the lightest end as well. When you come face to face with your true potentials and actually fulfilling your destiny because your sense of who you were all of a sudden changes – that is dread! When you come face to face with your real self and what you are there is dread. When the lofty theories of freedom can manifest there is also a sense of dread.

Judgemental: Based upon competition and comparison, maintains duality and separation and lacks love. To judge is to assess; to be judgemental, is to separate and elevate at the expense of another.

Fear of impact: You fear impact because it relates to love and you will be impacted upon in reverse. You are trying to protect yourself from being impacted upon, so you hold back and only observe, you are participating whether you like it or not.

Martyrhood : Playing tough – ‘I am good, and if you hurt me, I can handle it, I want you to find out I am hurting.’

Victimhood: Always talking about being hurt, a position of manipulation through vulnerability, wanting sympathy.

Fear of intimacy: ‘Into Me See,’ – the fear of being known, when they find out you have been a fraud because you are not being yourself.

Fear of caring too much: Afraid that the more you invest, the more you have to lose

Growth feels too complicated: The negative ego sees all your techniques as complicated works that it cannot do, so it opts for simplicity. Complexity is where there are a lot of things happening and you need to prioritise and take it one step at a time.

Feeling shallow: You will not explore emotions, you are not allowed to be moody, you are being plastic and shallow.

Give too much power to the illusion: You over identify with the outside world, give too much realness to everything and you look for external validation.

Being afraid of your own shadow: You know about your dark side which is in your shadow, you are afraid of the light in your shadow. Your shadow always tells the truth, are you afraid of the truth?

Being afraid of the past: if you resist the past, you cannot let it go and grow and succeed. When you have a backdrop against which you measure and compare everything, against which you live your life that is based upon the limiters, the child projections and identifications, the adolescent’s panics and absolutes, comparison and competition, pity and control, insecurities and fear – you end up, demanding perfection. When you surrender to it, give in to it, let it be real. You end up creating a backdrop of tragedy.

Perfectionism: a static ideal that is not obtainable, demands the approval of others, be they past present and future, perfectionism is the opposite to excellence.

Impatience: The new seers recommend a very simple act when impatience, or despairing, or  anger, or sadness comes their way. They recommend that warriors roll their eyes. Any direction will do; I prefer to roll mine clockwise. The movement of the eyes makes the assemblage point shift momentarily. In that movement, you will find relief.

Doubt: When a man decides to do something he must go all the way, but he must take responsibility for what he does. No matter what he does, he must know first why he is doing it, and then he must proceed with his actions without having doubts or remorse about them. ‘I have no doubts or remorse. Everything I do is my decision and my responsibility!’

You feel that indulging in doubts and tribulations is the sign of a sensitive person. Well, the truth of the matter is that you’re the farthest thing from being sensitive. So why pretend – a pioneer of consciousness accepts, in humbleness, what they are.

An immortal being has all the time in the world for doubts and bewilderment and fears. A pioneer, on the other hand, cannot cling to the meanings made under normal worldly orders, because they know for a fact that the totality of who they are has but a little time on this earth. A pioneer cannot be helpless, or bewildered or frightened, not under any circumstances. For a pioneer there is time only for their impeccability; everything else drains their power whereas impeccability replenishes it.

Be on the lookout and don’t lose confidence, for you will unavoidably be struck at one time or another by gripping feelings of defeat. For pioneers, there are two positions where there are no more doubts. In one you have no more doubts because you know everything. In the other, which is normal awareness, you have no doubts because you don’t know anything.

What we need to do to allow magic to get hold of us is to banish doubt from our minds. Once doubts are banished, anything is possible.

Limitation: Release the consciousness of limitation that you hold. Years ago it used to be called scarcity. It is a whole umbrella of topics. You will not allow yourself to have abundance. People who are caught in this world of limitation would rather blame and take, than love and give. They look for blame and look at taking. What can I get? To fight for your limitations is to maintain the status quo, mediocrity and stagnation.

Arrogance: Is a form of self importance or feeling superior.

Nostalgic: To reminisce is to indulge and invest energy in the past which you have already experienced – it is not allowing you to grow.  It traps you in a linear time line of the past.

Self Pity: Pioneers are incapable of feeling pity because they no longer feel sorry for themselves. Without the driving force of self‑pity, pity is meaningless.’

Quote from Carlos Castaneda: ‘Are you saying, Don Juan, that a pioneer is all for himself?’

‘In a way, yes. For a pioneer, everything begins and ends with himself. However, his contact with the abstract causes him to overcome his feeling of self importance. Then the self becomes abstract and impersonal.

‘Don’t you remember my teaching you the nature of ruthlessness?’ he asked, ‘ruthlessness, the opposite of self‑pity?’

He explained that sorcerers had unmasked self-importance and found that it is self‑pity masquerading as something else.

‘It doesn’t sound possible, but that is what it is,’ he said. ‘Self‑pity is the real enemy and the source of man’s misery. Without a degree of pity for himself, man could not afford to be as self‑important as he is’.

Fear: Learning is never what one expects. Every step of learning is a new task, and the fear the man is experiencing begins to mount mercilessly, unyieldingly. His purpose becomes a battlefield. And thus he has stumbled upon the first of his natural enemies: fear! A terrible enemy – treacherous and difficult to overcome. It remains concealed at every turn of the way, prowling and waiting. And if man, terrified in its presence, runs away, his enemy will have put an end to his quest and he will never learn. He will never become a man of knowledge. He will perhaps be a bully, or a harmless, scared man; at any rate, he will be a defeated man. His first enemy will have put an end to his cravings. It is not possible for a man to abandon himself to fear for years – then finally conquer it. If he gives in to fear, he will never conquer it, because he will shy away from learning and never try again. But if he tries to learn for years in the midst of his fear, he will eventually conquer it because he will never have really abandoned himself to it. Therefore he must not run away. He must defy his fear, and in spite of it he must take the next step in learning, and the next, and the next. He must be fully afraid, and yet he must not stop. That is the rule! And a moment will come when his first enemy retreats. The man begins to feel sure of himself. His intent becomes stronger. Learning is no longer a terrifying task. When this joyful moment comes, the man can say without hesitation that he has defeated his first natural enemy.  It happens little by little, and yet the fear is vanquished suddenly and fast. Once a man has vanquished fear, he is free from it for the rest of his life because, instead of fear, he has acquired clarity – a clarity of mind which erases fear. By then a man knows his desires; he knows how to satisfy those desires. He can anticipate the new steps of learning and a sharp clarity surrounds everything. The man feels that nothing is concealed.